In all the sexual assaults I think about or talk about, there's one that I never mentioned. A ranking NCO. When I first got to Iraq I was so grateful to have him there, because he protected me from some of the other assholes in my company who thought I was good for nothing. He worked hard to gain my trust, and when it came down to it, I couldn't say no. I thought he was the only one there who would protect me. I didn't know what to do. It was such bullshit. I never reported it, because I was so confused and afraid. He manipulated me to get what he wanted. I know that now. At the time, I was so conflicted about everything. He made me think he was the only friend I had in the world.