Tuesday, May 15, 2012

The girl

There is a girl. The girl loves to paint and read and write stories. The girl believes that the world is basically a good place. The girl believes people are basically good. The girl met a boy and falls in love. The girl is frustrated. The boy she loves goes to war. The girl waits, and listens, and is fearful of the death of the boy. The girl goes to college and works two jobs while the boy is away. The girl needs to stay busy. The girl marries the boy when he returns home. The girl is afraid of the boy and his anger. The girl feels trapped and afraid. The girl enlists in the army. The girl believes she has no choice. The girl knows something is wrong. The girl is not sure exactly what is wrong. The girl learns many things. The girl becomes good at things the army wants the girl to do. The girl feels stronger. The girl is moves to a post far away from home. The girl believes this is good. The boy goes with her. The girl knows the boy is not well. The girl asks her boss what to do. The boss ignores the girl. The girl is afraid. The girl is raped by the boy. The girl is frightened. The girl tries to pretend that the rape never happened. The girl hides her fears. The girl knows that fear attracts predators. The girl does not want to be prey. The girl escapes from the boy. The girl hides. The girl is ashamed. The girl feels unclean. The girl is afraid. The girl can't sleep. The girl can't eat. The girl is alone. The boss of the girl discovers her hiding. The girl is ordered to tell her boss why she is hiding. The girl tells the truth. The boss of the girl makes her tell the police. The boss of the girl makes her tell a doctor. The boss of the girl makes the boss tell the commander. The girl spends days telling people about the rape. The girl is afraid. The girl gets into trouble. The girl is frequently late. The girl is forgetful. The girl does not pay attention. The girl spends time with a friend. The girl hides. The girl is sad. The girl is confused. The girl no longer believes people are good. The girl does not feel safe. The girl does not care about anything. The girl wishes she were dead. The girl does not get along with the other soldiers. The girl cannot trust. The girl goes to war. The girl feels strong again. The girl has a purpose now. The girl is very good at her job. The girl is harassed by soldiers. The girl tries to ignore it. The girl works hard. The girl wants to be the best. The girl is touched and grabbed by soldiers. The girl tries to ignore it. The girl is raped by a soldier. The girl tries to ignore it. The army tells the girl not to cause trouble. The army believes it is the girl's fault. The girl works hard. The girl does not believe the army will protect her. The girl is alone. The girl is thousands of miles away from home. The girl is afraid. The girl fights in battles with the soldiers who hurt her. The girl is treated like an outcast. The girl works hard. The girl wants to save the soldiers from the enemy. The girl is touched and grabbed by a man. The girl asks for help. The army tells the girl to shut up and do her job. The girl does her job. The girl cannot sleep. The girl cannot eat. The girl cannot trust. The girl is raped again. The girl is coerced into sex by a soldier. The girl is afraid to say no. The girl believes she will never be safe again. The girl tries to ignore it. The girl is humiliated and harassed by soldiers. The girl reports a soldier for harassment. The girl is told she cannot work anymore. The girl is kept away from the other soldiers. The girl believes she is being punished. The girl is afraid. The girl returns home with the soldiers. The girl is angry. The girl wants to survive. The girl sees the soldiers as the enemy. The girl makes the soldiers angry so they will leave her alone. The girl tries to work. The girl tries to teach new soldiers how to work. The girl insults and ridicules the soldiers who are not new. The soldiers know the girl is good at her job. The soldiers need the girl. The girl does not need the soldiers. The girl uses their need to punish them for abandoning her. The girl leaves the army. The girl does not go back to the place she used to call home. The girl tries to build a new life. The girl is paranoid. The girl is afraid. The girl feels trapped. The girl cannot sleep. The girl cannot eat. The girl goes to the doctor. The doctor fills out paperwork. The doctor tells the girl she is disabled. The doctor makes the girl take pills to make her well. The girl does not like the pills. The pills do not work. The girl has nightmares. The girl has panic attacks. The girl has flashbacks. The girl is afraid to leave her home. The girl is afraid to be around people. The girl hides.

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